I could never work out who I was meant to be. Mainly because everyone told me who I should be. They also told me what direction I should go in and what I should pursue. I don’t blame them, they were encouraging me because there’s a certain direction for any industry. You sing you should enter a talent competition, same as dancing, acting.
Everyone wants to take there talent to the television. To make things a success that means fame, it means money. This became such a struggle for me because I thought there must be something seriously wrong with me and the way I think. Why could I not just do what I loved? Singing in pubs would give me money, singing on stage would give fame and money. Why wasn’t I able to move on this?
After much pondering and looking at my faith and what I wanted I realised I was pretty happy … just being me and just doing what I could, when I could. I didn’t want any of the above it wasn’t going to make me happy and gave me no peace when I thought of pursuing it.
What I truly wanted was to use the gifts that I have for God, he gave me them for a reason. I try to stay true to who I am and have found satisfaction and peace writing what’s on my heart. They are not all Worship but they are my struggles and my words. I want people to be able to listen to them and relate. To know that the storms pass. Every struggle I’ve got over is thanks to God. If I can just plant that little seed to those who have no hope left then I’ve served a purpose. When it comes to serving God it isn’t just a person who goes to church and caters for their church, they reach out to others who are suffering and who need him too.
I understand my post isn’t for everyone but I’m pretty comfortable with who i am and what path I want to lead. Even for those who don’t have a faith if you are struggling with where you are heading, just sit and be still … you may find the very thing you love just needs a whole new direction 😊😘